I couldn't sleep last night. I was awake until one and was awakened at 7 by the annoying ring of my cell phone alarm (three times!) I had hoped eating the tasiest ice cream in the world the day before weigh in wouldn't bite me in the ass, and it didn't. Hoooray. Okay, that's a lie. I didn't lose a single pound, when earlier this week I was down 2. That means that the diet coke/diet rootbeer and ice cream I had yesterday really kicked my ass. I'm sure of it in fact. I also need to throw away the rest of the Easter candy. (Who wastes candy!?!?)
My meeting was typical to say the least. I wasn't down (or up!) a single pound, and yet my hubby lost 4 without even trying. CURSE HIM. He loses 3.5-4 lbs every single week. I feel like I'm stuck, and this is the weight I was stuck at for years before having my daughter too, so I expected this struggle.
Normally, I'm very quiet. I sit in the middle of the room, and keep my head down the entire time. I listen contently, and smile pleasantry as people talk. Today, I finally got the courage to speak out loud, and of course there's a frog in my throat. I felt like an idiot, and my face turned beat right. I cleared my throat and tried again. Cindy (my leader) told me that I was correct and that what I had said was the most important topic. (Go me.) Just then my husband gives me this side eye look and makes my face go beat red. He teases me for not talking, and the one time I do, he makes me blush! Yep, that's my Andy. (Who, by the way, hit his 5% goal in our 5th week. He's down 14 pounds already, and I'm only down 7.)
So, I'm glad that my bday ice cream didn't kill me. I'm disappointed that I didn't lose, but I was prepared for that. This week I'm going to get back into moving more, and trying to get in those veggies! Last week was a rough week. Easter Candy, My birthday, Ice cream.......it was all too much! Next week WILL be better. (I hope.) On a happy note, I am still at my pre-baby weight, which is amazing.
Well friends, that was my day. I know I don't have much to say, but honestly my contacts are a little dry and my eye is sexily bloodshot so I am going to go remove them and put on my glasses for a few hours. (WHA?!) And in case anyone was wondering, my husband and I saw date night last night. I honestly haven't laughed so much, or so hard at a movie in YEARS. I nearly cried! Then today, I treated myself to a funky punky new hair do. $30 well spent for my own birthday present, to uh, myself.
I will blog more later. Or maybe I won't. But for now, it's chicken salad sandwhiches with light mayo *ew* and chopped celery/onion/red bell peppers for lunch. Hooray. I love fast easy lunches. Feel free to send recipes my way. Tweet me. Facebook me. Email me. I don't care. Just show the love.
Peace, Love, and Netflix
Sarah V.
P.s. I'm still waiting for Jackshit to jump out of my birthday cake...but, I think he's stalling. :)
Saturday, April 17, 2010
Friday, April 16, 2010
Fun Lovin Friday...
It's Fun Loving Friday!
As I'm sure you can guess by the photo above, my fun loving Friday entry today is about my cell phone! I love my cell phone with all my heart for several different reasons.
For starters, it has tons of pictures of my daughter in it. It also makes as a good make shift camera when I don't have my Canon with. Sure the quality sucks, but its the memory that counts right?
Second of all, my entire family is in there. My dad got his first cell phone this year (at the age of 45, tear, they grow up so fast) and he has just learned how to text. My mom and I also only stay in contact via text anymore. I call her once or twice a month, but we text often. I love getting random texts from them. Its so odd, but its like they know when I need a little parental pick me up.
Thirdly, it has my friends in there! (IE: YOU GUYS!) People I haven't seen in years text me and we have fun little chats. Even some people I've never met (like my best friend Ryan) text me! Btw, He is my favorite texter, just because he's so entirely random. (Of course Quinn is a very close second, she's also a very fun texter!) Just since yesterday I've already received 45 texts. So really, I have to say that I Looooove my phone. It's my sanity!!
And finally, it has the internet and a touch screen. I mean, who doesn't love laying in bed, sitting on twitter, facebook, blogger, myspace, or youtube? I know I do. Sometimes I just don't want to bust out my giant laptop to see what's going on in internet land.
It's hard to live away from your family and friends. I literally left my entire life behind in Iowa the day I moved to Tennessee. I left the world I knew and grew up in behind me. I feel like I'm completely lost without my phone, even if its been days since someone called or texted. I honestly feel like my phone is my only access to the world back home, and as long as I have it, I have a little piece of home with me. Does that make sense?
That is why my superawesomecellphone is the thing I love today. (Also, it now has a pink case on it, and is so much cuter.)
FOLLOW ME! (I'm all over your interwebs)
Peace, Love, and Another year older
Sarah V.
P.s. I also love today, but only because its my birthday AND a Friday. <3 Woohoo.
This blogger is officially 24.
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Exposed!
Since today is the last day of my 23rd year of existance, I have decided to do a picture blog! I feel like I've come a long way since we began our 6 week challenge in January. (For anyone who doesn't know what I'm talking about, refer to my first blog!)
Here we are 4 1/2 months later, and I'm down FIFTEEN pounds already! I sure don't feel like I've lost that much weight, and quite honestly I don't think I look like I have either. I am trying to keep the bigger picture in mind. Only 25 pounds to go! So, here's a little photo reminder of what I looked like back in January when we began this little endeavor....
Here are the stats for the above photos.
Weight: 209-210
Chest: 42 inches
Waist: 36 inches
Hips: 42 inches
And here, are some photos I took today. I hope you're in the mood to see a lot, because there are quite a few here. Maybe I'll only post a few though......hmm.
Current weight: 194.5
Chest: 41 inches
Waist: 33 inches
Hips: 42 inches (I doubt that will ever change!)
So, as you can see, I am down in both pounds and inches. Unfortunately, I feel like I'm losing weight in all the smaller areas first, so the overall effect isn't that noticable yet. Sadly, I no longer have ANY butt! It's like a wall back there, very flat. I never really had a butt before I gained weight, but that was the one place I was okay gaining weight. I'm glad I've lost inches though. These pants were TIGHT on me just 3 weeks ago, and now they fall off while I walk. (Size 16) I even put on my pre baby jeans, and I could squeeze into them just fine! They are 14's, but my hips kind of protrude over the sides of my jeans in them still, so hopefully I can try again in a few months! I'm really excited.
These are the current jeans I wear. Size 16, and a little too big these days. Even with a belt, they tend to fall off. I could try a pair of 15's, but I think those are just plain awkwardly sized. I think I'll just keep doing what I'm doing, and hoping for more results! So, there you have it. A photo update for my weight loss friends. Tell me what you think, and be brutally honest. Also, don't mind the tiger stripes. That tends to happen when you get pregnant and gain seventy pounds. Oh, hey. For a fun reminder, lets have a look at how big I was when I was pregnant.
Here we are 4 1/2 months later, and I'm down FIFTEEN pounds already! I sure don't feel like I've lost that much weight, and quite honestly I don't think I look like I have either. I am trying to keep the bigger picture in mind. Only 25 pounds to go! So, here's a little photo reminder of what I looked like back in January when we began this little endeavor....
Weight: 209-210
Chest: 42 inches
Waist: 36 inches
Hips: 42 inches
And here, are some photos I took today. I hope you're in the mood to see a lot, because there are quite a few here. Maybe I'll only post a few though......hmm.
Current weight: 194.5
Chest: 41 inches
Waist: 33 inches
Hips: 42 inches (I doubt that will ever change!)
So, as you can see, I am down in both pounds and inches. Unfortunately, I feel like I'm losing weight in all the smaller areas first, so the overall effect isn't that noticable yet. Sadly, I no longer have ANY butt! It's like a wall back there, very flat. I never really had a butt before I gained weight, but that was the one place I was okay gaining weight. I'm glad I've lost inches though. These pants were TIGHT on me just 3 weeks ago, and now they fall off while I walk. (Size 16) I even put on my pre baby jeans, and I could squeeze into them just fine! They are 14's, but my hips kind of protrude over the sides of my jeans in them still, so hopefully I can try again in a few months! I'm really excited.
The blue tank top was my wedding day (no i didnt wear the tank top.) I was 36 weeks along. The black shirt was the day before my induction. I was 40 weeks there and 262 pounds!
Alright, Well I hope you all had a fun walk with me down memory lane. Some of you were there with me through all the ups and downs of my pregnancy (hi Quinn!) and others I didn't meet until recently. I hope that you are all enjoying my blog, and continue to read what I have to say. Obviously, I rant and rave a lot, but I hope that doesn't make you any less inclined to read. Plus, when I hit my goal weight, I am going to *gulp* take a picture wearing only a 2 piece! God save us all. You don't want to miss that do you? Oh, wait...you might. Well either way, stick with me kid, and you'll go far. ha!
Peace, Love, and Random Pictures.
Sarah V.
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Numbers.
This weekend is my 24th birthday. That's right people, as of 8:11 a.m. on the 16th of April, I will be 24 years old. That's a lot of numbers for me to throw at ya isn't it? I am afraid I'm going to fall off the wagon. I'm afraid I'm going to eat my body weight in cake and ice cream. Even worse still, I am feeling quite depressed lately. When I get depressed one of two things happens. The first of which being, I eat until I cant even button my pants. The second of which being, I starve myself. Obviously, niether of these things are healthy, and I'm conscious of them. Being conscious of them means that I can try to halt either of these things from happening. But, Some habits just die hard..
There are a lot of things going on in my life right now that are making me unhappy. The fact that I'm almost 24 and living with my father in law being the first. The fact that my car has been broken down for 3 1/2 months, with no signs of it being fixed, is the second. The third, well money. Isn't that everyone's issue these days? My husband is barely getting any hours at work, and I cant physically get a job without the ability to get there and back. I need to be able to drive myself to work, and my daughter to and from daycare. The only way our lives are going to improve will be for us to get our shit together, move out, both work, and put our daughter in daycare.
I hate the idea of Emma going to daycare, but she has spent every day of her life for 18 months sitting at home with mommy. She needs to be around other kids, and I'm aware of this. I really would like to be a stay at home mom when she hits school age, but right now life has other plans for us. We need like fourteen miracles to occur simultaneously, but nothing is ever easy enough for us. It seems like we're always clawing our way up out of one hole, and digging ourselves right back down into another. We are tired of taking help from everyone else, trying to please everyone else, and listening to everyone else. The situation we're in is taking a real toll on our marriage, and our lives ,even if I'm the only one who sees it. Its time to grow up, and move forward. It's time to make our own futures, and not let everyone else plan them for us.
So, my 24th year will be dedicated to doing just that. I am giving myself one year from the 16th of April, to get my life in order. I am giving myself one year to have a place of our own, a decent job, and some financial stability. If after one year, I am still in the same situation: carless, jobless, and technically homeless, I will be forced to move back to Iowa for a while to re-evaluate my priorities. So wish me luck in my year long endeavor, stick with me to find out what happens, and pray to god that I don't eat my body weight in cake. Because honestly, I kind of want to.
Maybe Ill just get myself a cupcake instead?
Peace, Love, and Bitching.
Sarah V.
There are a lot of things going on in my life right now that are making me unhappy. The fact that I'm almost 24 and living with my father in law being the first. The fact that my car has been broken down for 3 1/2 months, with no signs of it being fixed, is the second. The third, well money. Isn't that everyone's issue these days? My husband is barely getting any hours at work, and I cant physically get a job without the ability to get there and back. I need to be able to drive myself to work, and my daughter to and from daycare. The only way our lives are going to improve will be for us to get our shit together, move out, both work, and put our daughter in daycare.
I hate the idea of Emma going to daycare, but she has spent every day of her life for 18 months sitting at home with mommy. She needs to be around other kids, and I'm aware of this. I really would like to be a stay at home mom when she hits school age, but right now life has other plans for us. We need like fourteen miracles to occur simultaneously, but nothing is ever easy enough for us. It seems like we're always clawing our way up out of one hole, and digging ourselves right back down into another. We are tired of taking help from everyone else, trying to please everyone else, and listening to everyone else. The situation we're in is taking a real toll on our marriage, and our lives ,even if I'm the only one who sees it. Its time to grow up, and move forward. It's time to make our own futures, and not let everyone else plan them for us.
So, my 24th year will be dedicated to doing just that. I am giving myself one year from the 16th of April, to get my life in order. I am giving myself one year to have a place of our own, a decent job, and some financial stability. If after one year, I am still in the same situation: carless, jobless, and technically homeless, I will be forced to move back to Iowa for a while to re-evaluate my priorities. So wish me luck in my year long endeavor, stick with me to find out what happens, and pray to god that I don't eat my body weight in cake. Because honestly, I kind of want to.
Maybe Ill just get myself a cupcake instead?
Peace, Love, and Bitching.
Sarah V.
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Holy Buckets!
Last night, I started my very own bucket list with the inspiration of my friend Brooke. I put the pen to paper and started writing. I stopped once I hit number 80. I will tell you, this isn't your typical bucket list. It consists of things that I might never be able to control, but would still like to do. So, I guess it's a little strange...just like me! So, without further delay, here it is. My totally random list of things to do before I die.
There you have it. Have you done any of these? Whats on your list?
Peace, Love, and Randomosity.
Sarah V.
- Visit all 50 states, and have my photo taken next to the "welcome to" sign. (Ex: Welcome to Ohio sign.)
- Graduate college.
- Own a photo studio.
- Run a marathon.
- Get hair extensions.
- Travel to an exotic island.
- Meet Shane Dawson & Zach Braff.
- Do one thing that I'm terrified of.
- Drastically change someone elses life.
- Be financially stable.
- Have a bedroom with red walls.
- Own a brand new car that is fully paid off.
- Pay off all of my old debts.
- Meet my half brother.
- Visit my grandfathers grave.
- See France
- Break all the rules in any one place. (Like a swimming pool!)
- Visit New York with my daughter.
- Be 100% happy with my body.
- Be someone elses inspiration.
- Publish a collective book of poetry and short stories featuring only the works of myself and my friends.
- Write a song.
- Learn to cook without a cookbook.
- Tell my brothers I love them.
- Finish my scrapbook.
- Burn all memorabilia from my exes.
- Be in a music video.
- Have my tattoos touched up.
- Be thin enough to rock a belly button ring.
- Meet all of my online friends in person!
- Learn to stop holding grudges.
- Watch a scary movie, alone, at night, in the dark.
- Own a home.
- Decorate my own home. (Yes, these two go together.)
- See a clone.
- Get over my fear of being in public.
- Make new friends.
- Learn to trust people again.
- Be brave enough for public speaking.
- Learn how to skip rocks.
- Try tofu.
- Have dinner with Hugh Laurie.
- Adopt a pet.
- Build a tree house.
- Drive for days with no destination.
- Spend a week in Hollywood.
- Ride a horse.
- Be a movie extra.
- Get a makeover from my friend Barbie Teal.
- Spend one whole week with the Hay family.
- Get a breast reduction and lift.
- Get a career in medicine.
- Fall asleep under the stars with someone I love.
- See my baby brother graduate.
- Buy jeans in a one digit size.
- Move back to Iowa.
- See another concert. (I've only seen 3)
- Get drunk with my brother Ty, LEGALLY!
- Skinny dip in the rain
- Go for a walk with Ryan.
- Find god.
- Wear a wedding dress. (I got married in blue jeans and a red top.)
- Ask forgiveness from all those who I've wronged.
- Own an autographed cd.
- Have a song written about me and recorded for me.
- Sing karaoke.
- Stop caring about what people think of me.
- Be a suicide girl for one day.
- Laugh until milk squirts out my nose.
- Take my mom out for a spa/girls day.
- Try an expensive wine.
- Start a charity.
- Learn how to play an instrument.
- Own 500 dvds.
- Take a pottery class.
- Learn how to paint on canvas.
- Buy a telephoto lens
- Have a picnic on a rooftop
- Finish my weight watchers goal by my 25th birthday.
- ITS A SECRET!
There you have it. Have you done any of these? Whats on your list?
Peace, Love, and Randomosity.
Sarah V.
Monday, April 12, 2010
Blog Free Weekend
So as some of you may have noticed, I wasn't around this weekend much. I decided to take a break from the usual weight loss world, and blogs associated with it. It was nothing personal, I just decided that I was becoming a little too obsessive over it, and needed a break. Instead of focusing on my blogs, I spent the weekend with my family.
My husband, father in law, daughter, and I all spent Sunday playing on the back patio. It was a gorgeous weekend. In fact, it was so nice that my husband and I decided to go buy a small charcoal grill, but instead of burgers or streaks, we grilled lean turkey burgers! I was pleasantly surprised with how delicious they were. I know a lot of people don't like charcoal grills, but that's what I grew up on. I also had a diet rootbeer with my turkey burger and 1 oz of bbq chips. Yeah, it was so freaking good.
I'm proud to say that I also did great with points yesterday. I actually had TEN points left after dinner. I had to fight to get all my points in before bed. That NEVER happens to me. I'm always out of points after supper! So, I was pretty proud of myself for that. I also have been eating more fruits and veggies. Quinn told me to take some sweet grapes and freeze them so they are like a hard candy treat, so I am going to attempt that next time we get groceries. Anyone want to try it with me?! I am always up for trying new things, as long as it doesn't include foods that I'm for SURE I don't like.
I have to say, I must be doing something right. On Saturday, I weighed in at 195.5, and the weight watchers scale matched my home scale. Today, I stepped on the scale and was so surprised to see the following numbers.....................
Okay, first of all, let me say I have no idea why my feet look so creepy. They are not creepy feet, of this I assure you. They are cute, and small. (Size 7, for a girl who's almost six foot tall.) Second of all, I can not WAIT to see a number that begins with a 1-8, instead of a 1-9, or 2-0. I am so excited about this weight loss. I need to get to work on toning up my body so I don't end up a flabby mess of goo, but so far I look pretty good. I will post some before/after pictures in a blog later today or this week. I found some pics of my belly before I started losing weight back in Jan/Feb, and my jaw DROPPED. I never realized exactly how much weight I'd lost until I saw those pictures. For anyone keeping track, I was 209 in January and am now 193.2 (194.4 when fully clothed, and yes I'm naked in the pic above.) Wish me luck as I continue on this journey, and if ANYONE has any good food ideas, recipes, work outs, etc. Feel free to comment or shoot me an email!
Peace, Love, and Early Morning CMT
Sarah V.
My husband, father in law, daughter, and I all spent Sunday playing on the back patio. It was a gorgeous weekend. In fact, it was so nice that my husband and I decided to go buy a small charcoal grill, but instead of burgers or streaks, we grilled lean turkey burgers! I was pleasantly surprised with how delicious they were. I know a lot of people don't like charcoal grills, but that's what I grew up on. I also had a diet rootbeer with my turkey burger and 1 oz of bbq chips. Yeah, it was so freaking good.
I'm proud to say that I also did great with points yesterday. I actually had TEN points left after dinner. I had to fight to get all my points in before bed. That NEVER happens to me. I'm always out of points after supper! So, I was pretty proud of myself for that. I also have been eating more fruits and veggies. Quinn told me to take some sweet grapes and freeze them so they are like a hard candy treat, so I am going to attempt that next time we get groceries. Anyone want to try it with me?! I am always up for trying new things, as long as it doesn't include foods that I'm for SURE I don't like.
I have to say, I must be doing something right. On Saturday, I weighed in at 195.5, and the weight watchers scale matched my home scale. Today, I stepped on the scale and was so surprised to see the following numbers.....................
Okay, first of all, let me say I have no idea why my feet look so creepy. They are not creepy feet, of this I assure you. They are cute, and small. (Size 7, for a girl who's almost six foot tall.) Second of all, I can not WAIT to see a number that begins with a 1-8, instead of a 1-9, or 2-0. I am so excited about this weight loss. I need to get to work on toning up my body so I don't end up a flabby mess of goo, but so far I look pretty good. I will post some before/after pictures in a blog later today or this week. I found some pics of my belly before I started losing weight back in Jan/Feb, and my jaw DROPPED. I never realized exactly how much weight I'd lost until I saw those pictures. For anyone keeping track, I was 209 in January and am now 193.2 (194.4 when fully clothed, and yes I'm naked in the pic above.) Wish me luck as I continue on this journey, and if ANYONE has any good food ideas, recipes, work outs, etc. Feel free to comment or shoot me an email!
Peace, Love, and Early Morning CMT
Sarah V.
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Half Weigh There
Today was weigh in day, and I was pleasantly surprised. I was down 3 1/2 pounds this week. Now, considering the amount of Easter candy I ate, and the trip to Taco Johns. I was really amazed. Then again, the last 2 days that I was sick with food poisoning could have also helped that weight loss. I am over half weigh to my 5% goal already. I am hoping that I can hit it by my birthday, but I'm not counting on it. My birthday is 6 days away, and I need to lose another 3.5 pounds to hit my 5%. Realistically, I would be happy to hit it before my Iowa trip. I really can't wait to hit 10 lbs gone! I weighed in at 195.5 today. I nearly cried. I am at my PRE BABY WEIGHT!!!!!! I have a long way to go until my "goal weight," but right now I am so excited to be back where I was. Obviously, my body has changed and I can't run off and throw on my pre baby clothes just yet, but damn it. I'm proud of myself.
This week I am planning on walking every day that I possibly can. We talked about walking 10 minutes a day in group today, and I usually walk 30 a day. I think that I can manage that. Plus, it's supposed to be a gorgeous week! I really would like to be down another five pounds or so before my Iowa trip. That gives me almost 4 weeks to get down five pounds. If I lose 1 lb a week, I will almost be there. I know that I won't always be lucky enough to lose 3.5 lbs at weigh in. At least this week my scale and the weight watchers scale agreed. The weight watchers scale actually weighed me as .01lbs less than my home scale. WOO! I'm having a great Saturday so far, and I hope it stays that way.
You will also be excited to hear that I ATE my weeklies last week, and I didn't feel guilty. I still had ten left by the time today rolled around, but I did it. I felt bad at first, and I kept thinking I was going to hinder my weight loss, but so far this program is working really well for my husband and I. Oh, speaking of my husband...he hit his TEN POUND mark today! He gets embarrassed sometimes being the only guy who goes to the meetings, but we see plenty who come weigh in and that has helped ease his embarrassment some. He got called up to get his 10 lb ribbon, and his face was so red. I'm not looking forward to that moment either. I hate being in the center of large groups. Luckily, there were only about ten people at today's meeting. I'm just really proud of him.
When we lived in Florida, my husband managed to get down to 209 pounds. His goal is currently 180. (He's 5'9.) I was gaining as he was losing because I was pregnant. I managed to hit 262 as he hit 209. I remember crying to him in a parking lot when I saw my reflection in a car window. I looked at him and said, "I'm not supposed to be fat. You're not supposed to be the thin one. This isn't right. I feel horrible. I'm huge!" At that point, I was only 4 months along, and I had already hit about 215-220lbs. He looked at me and told me that things were fine. He never even realized how thin he got until I showed him old pictures of himself. In the 9 months after we moved back from Florida, he gained over 60 pounds. We moved to a new town, and he was unemployed for 3 1/2 months. During that time he went through a bad depression. He was eating his feelings constantly, and I wasn't far behind. We would sit in the bedroom with potato chips, leftovers, candy, or any other amount of junk we could find. We would also both drink a ton of soda while we were playing xbox, or watching movies. We are mindless eaters, and it caught up to us.
My husbands biggest point was around 269 pounds, and today he weighed in at 230. We have both lost a lot of weight, even before joining weight watchers. We finally hit a lull and we knew we couldn't do it on our own anymore. So, after weeks of talking about it, we decided to join. It was easy enough at first to weigh every meal, but over time it gets a little bit difficult. I have finally realized that if I just keep the measuring cup and scales out while I'm cooking, it doesn't bother me as much as it does when I have to go rummaging for things.
Over all I'd say today was a big success for us both. My husband went in to the meeting expecting to gain a pound or two, as did I. When I weighed myself sans clothes (which I do at home, to see my "true" weight) I weighed 194.4. I was so happy, I could cry. I can't imagine being under 190 pounds. I haven't weighed less than 195 pounds in around three and a half years. I can't wait to see how far this journey can take me. I still haven't decided on a goal weight. I was thinking 170, but the more I think about it, the more I think 165 might be better. Who knows. It's something that I will think about more and more as I lose the pounds. As long as my number doesn't drop down to some unrealistic number (like 135) I think I'll be okay. I will try to post some progress pics this week. I'm sure you're not sick of seeing my face quite yet. (Please note the sarcasm.) I'm also trying to talk my husband into letting me take his picture, but he loathes cameras. We have been married for going on 2 years, and we have never had a professional family photo done. I am hoping to talk him into that soon too. Wish me luck.
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Sarah V.
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This week I am planning on walking every day that I possibly can. We talked about walking 10 minutes a day in group today, and I usually walk 30 a day. I think that I can manage that. Plus, it's supposed to be a gorgeous week! I really would like to be down another five pounds or so before my Iowa trip. That gives me almost 4 weeks to get down five pounds. If I lose 1 lb a week, I will almost be there. I know that I won't always be lucky enough to lose 3.5 lbs at weigh in. At least this week my scale and the weight watchers scale agreed. The weight watchers scale actually weighed me as .01lbs less than my home scale. WOO! I'm having a great Saturday so far, and I hope it stays that way.
You will also be excited to hear that I ATE my weeklies last week, and I didn't feel guilty. I still had ten left by the time today rolled around, but I did it. I felt bad at first, and I kept thinking I was going to hinder my weight loss, but so far this program is working really well for my husband and I. Oh, speaking of my husband...he hit his TEN POUND mark today! He gets embarrassed sometimes being the only guy who goes to the meetings, but we see plenty who come weigh in and that has helped ease his embarrassment some. He got called up to get his 10 lb ribbon, and his face was so red. I'm not looking forward to that moment either. I hate being in the center of large groups. Luckily, there were only about ten people at today's meeting. I'm just really proud of him.
When we lived in Florida, my husband managed to get down to 209 pounds. His goal is currently 180. (He's 5'9.) I was gaining as he was losing because I was pregnant. I managed to hit 262 as he hit 209. I remember crying to him in a parking lot when I saw my reflection in a car window. I looked at him and said, "I'm not supposed to be fat. You're not supposed to be the thin one. This isn't right. I feel horrible. I'm huge!" At that point, I was only 4 months along, and I had already hit about 215-220lbs. He looked at me and told me that things were fine. He never even realized how thin he got until I showed him old pictures of himself. In the 9 months after we moved back from Florida, he gained over 60 pounds. We moved to a new town, and he was unemployed for 3 1/2 months. During that time he went through a bad depression. He was eating his feelings constantly, and I wasn't far behind. We would sit in the bedroom with potato chips, leftovers, candy, or any other amount of junk we could find. We would also both drink a ton of soda while we were playing xbox, or watching movies. We are mindless eaters, and it caught up to us.
My husbands biggest point was around 269 pounds, and today he weighed in at 230. We have both lost a lot of weight, even before joining weight watchers. We finally hit a lull and we knew we couldn't do it on our own anymore. So, after weeks of talking about it, we decided to join. It was easy enough at first to weigh every meal, but over time it gets a little bit difficult. I have finally realized that if I just keep the measuring cup and scales out while I'm cooking, it doesn't bother me as much as it does when I have to go rummaging for things.
Over all I'd say today was a big success for us both. My husband went in to the meeting expecting to gain a pound or two, as did I. When I weighed myself sans clothes (which I do at home, to see my "true" weight) I weighed 194.4. I was so happy, I could cry. I can't imagine being under 190 pounds. I haven't weighed less than 195 pounds in around three and a half years. I can't wait to see how far this journey can take me. I still haven't decided on a goal weight. I was thinking 170, but the more I think about it, the more I think 165 might be better. Who knows. It's something that I will think about more and more as I lose the pounds. As long as my number doesn't drop down to some unrealistic number (like 135) I think I'll be okay. I will try to post some progress pics this week. I'm sure you're not sick of seeing my face quite yet. (Please note the sarcasm.) I'm also trying to talk my husband into letting me take his picture, but he loathes cameras. We have been married for going on 2 years, and we have never had a professional family photo done. I am hoping to talk him into that soon too. Wish me luck.
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