Exhaustion...

I woke up at eight am this morning. I don't know why, but I was completely and utterly exhausted. Okay, that's not entirely true. I know why. I have a horrible habit of staying up late to watch movies on Saturday nights. You see, my husband works overnights on Saturdays. So, that's the one night I get to stay up late, watch chick flicks, and enjoy my alone time. He absolutely REFUSES to watch movies with me, so that's why I watch them while he's not home! Well, last night I ended up wathing movies until two am. Whoops. The worst part is that it was a movie I'd seen numerous times, and it wasn't even interesting. I just picked a movie I figured I'd fall asleep to without caring. (Damn you Freddie Prinze Jr. for keeping my attention!)

So, after going to bed at two, I wake up to a crying baby at three. I let her cry herself back to sleep for a bit, because I've learned from experience if I don't, then it just gets twice as hard to lay her back down. So, I was up again until 3:30 making sure she went back to bed. By the time eight a.m. rolled around, I was exhausted. I ended up laying down on the couch and sleeping until 8:45 while Emma played. I finally got up around 9 to feed myself and Emma. She is really fussy today from waking up so much last night, and I may nap while she naps.

The point of all this, is that I'm paying the price today. I had been feeling great lately. Going to bed around eleven, and getting up at eight wasn't bothering me. I actually had energy to burn! I have eaten my food regularly, but I forgot to finish my last 4pts last night. Then staying up all night really effed up my bodies usual routine. I have taken my vitamin, and I've eaten breakfast trying to get my body to wake up. It hasn't, and now I have one of those headaches you get when you are up all night tossing and turning. I am grumpy, cranky, crabby, whatever you want to call it. I'm just pissy today.

I'm tired of this rainy weather, I want to get outside. I want my damn car fixed so I can drive my daughter to the park and walk the track. I want to find a job, and get back into school. I want to have a life again outside of this house. I can't even workout because my husband will sleep until 5 today, my father in law is hiding in HIS room, and my daughter is running around like a chicken with her head cut off. Today is one of those days I really want to say to hell with it, and quit. I want to sit on the couch, grab a Dr. Pepper, a bag of potato chips, veg out and stare at the t.v. Luckily, I won't do that. I forced myself to get up, get my tracker, measure my food, and enjoy it. I'm glad I did that, because I could have easily fallen off the band wagon, but I didn't. So, instead...I'm going to sit on the couch in my hot pink robe, watch tv, and veg without the food. Is that possible? I don't know, but I'm doing it.

Peace, Love, and Pink Robes
Sarah V.